We were over the moon
when we submitted on the very first situation we saw, and she picked us! Day one, situation one, we had a baby! The baby was born and waiting for us, and I’ll never forget that car ride to the hospital. I still couldn’t believe it was happening.
Sadly, once we got to the hospital, things started changing quickly. Our hope and excitement quickly turned to disappointment and grief. Due to circumstances beyond our control, we were in a quiet lobby mourning a baby we didn’t even know we loved 24 hours earlier.
This heartbreak was a reality check for me, and I wondered how many times I’d have to feel this heartbreak before our baby was in our arms. I wondered if it would be worth it, and then felt guilty for even thinking that. It was a rollercoaster. This event had me questioning everything: family, morals, love, our future of adoption. Everything.